Things to come....

Well, it happened. I have a wonderful man and a beautiful baby girl. Lilian is now almost 13 months old and she is such a joy! Her favorite thing in the world is eating. She would prefer food over toys any day.

Having a child sure changes everything. What was important in the past seems so insignificant now. All that is done now is for your child. Jarek is a great guy. Finally, someone that handles my craziness. He can tell you just how emotional I can be. Makes thing interesting at times.... For now we are building our life here in Arizona, but who knows what the future will hold for us. The plan is to move to Europe at some point. Jarek was born in Poland and I am polish as well, so that really is home for us.

Men, or lack thereof

I am posting this mostly for myself. I have no idea why I always gravitate towards men that hurt me or men that I can never really have. It happened again and I am angry at myself. I deserve how I feel and I understand what I did wrong. Wonder how many other girls have this problem?

Finding someone that is a good person and really cares for me is very hard. I am also an emotional person so I guess that can scare guys away too, but I really have no idea how else to behave. There is so much love in this girl and I know there is a man out there that can handle it, I just hope I find him before I am an old lady! The fact that I am not very outgoing and quiet when I first meet people does not help the situation. Sometimes I feel like I am from another planet! I remember reading once that is a Scorpio thing.....

Well I have to say that writing this helped alot. It's like they say, whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

Moja Polska....

I am now back, officially, from my wonderful trip to Poland. The reason I use the word officially is that my sleep is pretty much normal now, but not quite. Poland has a special place in my heart, as it is the birth country of both my parents. I still have family there, so I feel at home when I visit.

Welcome!

Well, I have finally decided to go ahead and share my thoughts and opinions with the world. I know, it's about time, I completely agree. Now I am not sure exactly how this will go since I have an endless stream of opinions on a variety of subjects, but I will have a good time figuring it all out. Feel free to comment and tell me how crazy you think I am, I can take it all. I am always looking for a healthy discussion and I hope to be entertaining as well. Until next time.....